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SHOPPING TOMORROW!! :)

At the apple store. 11.21am

Hey, here with brittany. Was with other girls, but they seemed to have...walked off. Oh well, well find them. Our stomachs hurt, we are going to get food soon. i hope. >.>

Brittany: yes i really do hope we get food soon, but i want to find the other girls :P
Hayley: so...HUNGRY, cant..breath. UGH. tehe, im a drama queen -flickers eyelashes- :)
Brittany:well then lets go find them so we can get food!!!
Hayley:Do we haaave to. I mean, they left us. ;P
Brittany: yes hayley we do, and maybe they didnt know that they left us, maybe they thought we left them and are looking for us??
hayley: Well, they obviously didnt really look hard enough. lol. bye blog. xo

HAH`

Even If It Wasnt Me You Lied To, You Still Lied To Everyone Else For Attention, So Whatever Way You Put It, You Lied. I Dont Appreciate It.

CHRISTMAS AT DADS. :)

Us waiting for our presents ;)And I added the socks that I got cause, well, they are FRIGGEN AWESOME!

CHRISTMAS AT DADS! 24th December

Opening Presents :)

(n)

i fail. :)

I Miss You

So Far away, I wish you were here, before its to late this could all disappear

A Story

Her parents are split
Her rooms a mess
Her sisters hate her
She does everything wrong
She is just a screw up
She is the "bitch" of the house
She is to blame for all faults
She can't seem to do anything right
Her friends come in many
But being between so many, means having to choose sides
But she doesn't
Although rumors go around
Saying she does
But she doesn't get into the middle of things
She tries not to
Unless it finally reaches her last nerve
When the fight is being done immaturely
When her friend tries to tell them about the fight
She tells them "No, Its not my fight, I dont need to hear it"
Her friends understand
But others dont

My Plans For Christmas

Tomorrow (24th) I will be at my dads and we are staying up really late to \open presents at 12 am (25th). Then passing out and going to my moms in the morning. Ill tell you how it goes. ;)

2 MORE SLEEPS!

Two more sleeps...so-excited! Cant.keep.CONCENTRATION! OMG....SQUIRREL

Girls, girls, girls.

Why is it that girls always fight? And as they do, they do it in the worst way possible.All these rumors, all it does is bring up your ego. If you hate, dislike, whatever you want to call it. If you hate one person, or one another.They still deserve respect. They never did anything to you to "ruin your life". As you say it. Your 13 for darn sake. You have a whole life ahead of you and you think its bad now? It only gets worse. With bills, family, weight. Everything, it gets worse, but you have to be strong and hold your head up high. Not try and ruin another persons life? If a girl likes your ex, don't try and stand in her way and make it difficult just because you hate her? Or even if you were best friends. Why let a boy get in the middle of it? You have so many years left to finish, why make it harder on yourselves? Its called KARMA people. Which means, whatever you send out comes back three fold. Which means if you even help some random old lady cross the street, the kindness and common courtesy you put into that comes back at you three times stronger. But don't forget, same thing goes with rudeness, disrespect. It will come back at you hard. So some girls out there, be ready for the karma truck sitting out side your door. :) of course, we all have our own beliefs.

Sigh

I dont want to go back to my moms. Its just so boring. She always says she cant do something with us, because she is studying.? Then why does she have time for her friends. Well, guess its back to moms I go.

December 22. Dads House. 1:43pm.

Sitting with Steven. Were awesome, chea. lol
Family is watching Dawn of the Dinasaurs-Ice Age. Yes, they are cool to. XD
Nice new hair cori.!!
B-O-R-E-D
El. Gee. Come on msn. lol.

December 21st. Steves Room. 6:10pm

COLD. were is the damn heater in this house? By the way, I got 100% on my social studies quiz. And we didn't get a mark for the science one cause he didn't get it marked in time. gee. In a better mood,now. Yesterday was sad. So was the dance, very depressing near the end. Thanks for the Coke John! XD Yesterday was exacly a year from the tragedy that changed my life forever. Ill never forget.

Helen & Simon
<3

December 15th. 5:45pm. Computer Room/Steves Room.

Bored. Sisters being really annoying. Wanting to talk to someone. They are on now, probably busy. okay, now sisters are really pissing me off. Psh, children. Lol. Stop arguing, clean up your mess. Blah blah. This morning I wasn't feeling so good, so I stayed home. In the afternoon I had to go to school though, fore I had two damn tests. Science, which I don't know how I did, I was 10 pages. Ill say the mark once I get it. As well with My Social Studies one. Well, the test is actually tomorrow. Ill tell you my marks when I get them. But for first term all average, mine is 90.4. Not bad for me I must say. I have to go to a mandatory ski trip meeting at 7. boring. ha ha. Anyways, been having this lonely feeling lately, which is just making me sad. sigh. Wish I could talk to el. they'd know what to do.

December 14th. Monday. 2:21 pm. Art Class.

Sitting in art class. Really bored. Really confused. Its free time. Guys are acting stupid.. as usual. Taking pictures. I hate it when they take ones of me. Give 'em a Little one two. My life is really confusing right know. I really don't want to go to the dance, but I need to be there for Brittany. Guy life is confusing. 2. But not just any two. One seems to defiantly be on my better side right now. We had ping pong. Brittany and I are in 3rd place for doubles. I was in 4th for singles. I really hope next summer will happen. I think it would be fine. The whole in my gut may be filled. I don't know. Life is just off. Will I make it to 14? I don't know. Its just, ugh. Im 13, I don;t need all of this. Its just to hard. But Im glad el is there. Makes me feel better. Sometimes unable to be there, but I know its for good reason. You know what a really cool last name is? Lavoie :)

GoodNight :) GoodMorning

Its 12.03am. Saturday Morning. Having a family dinner tonight, and I hope all goes well. :) goodnight/good morning. Maybe ill go read. Yes, I like that idea. :D

Why?

Is it still possible for a guy to be romantic?
For a guy to hold you when your scared, or cold?
For a guy to have common courtesy?
Is it?

Volleyball `09

Being that I am in grade 8, This was my last year playing volleyball at my school.
Ill miss all the grade 7s who will be the lead of the junior team next year. And thankyou coach. For all that you've taught me. :)

November 2nd, Computer Lab, Tech Class, 11:38am

Hello.=] Im here with my BEST FRIEND Brittany. We have to do a garage band, hers is FUNKAY! Mines, well, in my oppinoin, rather booorring. Brittany loves the end though, its okay, I guess. LMFAO Its almost lunch. yuum. And my arm is killing me,no idea why. Might be from volunteering at six pines and getting thrown in a cage a million times by Zac. Hrmm.Or maybe from crawling under a table to sit on a chair to be the prego girls head that screams for her life as an alien does autopsy and pulls out her skeletal baby. "I WONDER" >-> Poor arm. OMG:O I have a such a bad cough, I swear Im dying,and I think I gave it to Brittany.Tehe, every time I was in the cage crying for help and I yelled at the people saying I was dying, I actually started coughing.XD Ahahaha. And gee I was depressed this weekend considering I forgot my book in my locker at school.!!! HOW TERRIBLE AM I! Yep. SooOOoo. Oh, and Austin, the guy in the gilly suit kept hitting on the girls instead of scaring them. GEEZ AUTUMN.! XD -lmao, Jared- lol but austin is kinda cute though! :P-brittany Yes,most of the guys there were-hayley

Well, goodbye. =]

Greeaaat.

Great. I'm in school and feeling so damn sick. We have no language arts class today, which is one of my favorites because of reading. Yesterday I stayed home sick and finished Harry Potter and the Order f the Phoenix . Now I'm on Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince but I have no time to read it for she as (my teacher) taken all English classes for the day due to Social Studies. So I just had to look up the difference between civilization and society. Well, I have to shut down now.

FML

Last night I had a sleepover with some friends. 2 girls and 3 boys. When I came home everything seemed normal. My twin sister had a couple friends over, and we hung out for a while. Then as I was sitting at the computer, my friend's mom ( the friend I slept over with) told me that my dad had just called, asking about the boys that slept over! HOW DID HE KNOW!?!?!?!?! Now I'm grounded till FOREVER and my dad's disapointed in me. FML

Dammit

I think I'm getting sick...Darn

My New Dog Tinou (tin-OO)

Tinou. The grey dog with a beard. =]

No Puppy For Me.
Owner Took Her
Silly Little Girl Forgot To Shut The Gate
The Puppy's Name Was Cali

SCHOOL !!

School starts tomorrow. We have to be in the classroom with our books by 9.00am. ERG. Waking up. EARLY. dammit.

May Get A Puppy If She Is Not Claimed In 30 Days

Lost:

Adorable dog I want forever. :)

Hanging With Cheluby in Minnedosa.

We took my body butter and put it on out faces. XD

Friends With Celebs

Pictures I made of my friends with there favorite celebrities.

Rainbow!

This was a rainbow after the beautiful rain. =]

Writing A Book. Titled "Trek To Destiny"

Im writing a book, and as soon as i can get as much of the book i can onto the site once its done, i will

Sigh.

Going to my cousin Holly's for another 5 days to babysit her 4 year old Ayden. 80$ a week. Waking up at 5.00am. Reading. Oh so much fun to come. (sarcasim)

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WEDDING ON SATURDAY FOR MY COUSIN SARA

cant wait to see my cousins

?!?!?!

Oh My.HE-ALP!

Tuesday,June 30th '09, 11:12am

My throat is KILLING me. Im eating a halls....its ikky.

My plans for today is...
1.00pm-Go downtown to talk to some lady to do with my rents' divorce
afterwords-hangout with brody
7-come home
then do whatever.

My plans for tomorrow is...

wakeup-shower
after-hangout with Jenna,Taylor and Kayla
After-Micheal,Davids,Diane's and G's new house for a Canada Day BBQ and hopefully fireworks


I'll tell you how this all goes.

butterfly

haha. butter that flies

I'm a dark angel. tehe

Bull frog.

Haha, get it's, Bullfrog. XD

//
and some more friends <3

I love my friends..and boyfriend. More to come. <3

The Summerland

The Summerland


I sit down in my room
thinking of what to say
for the next day it will happen again
a beating from my father
to his own daughter
My friends notice the cuts and bruises a lot
they ask what went on
I tell them nothing has gone wrong,
I just fell off my bed
or sports practice was extra long
they don't know that indeed I lie

I really used to try
I would fight him off with my bare fists
but it was like throwing a boomerang
although it came back ten times harder,
ten times faster.
He tosses me to the ground.
He is extremely mad today,
for he was fired from his job.
the job he used to pay for mingling
and drinking at the bar.
The bar just down the road.

He takes his fist,
sweaty from anxiety,
and drops it down across my jaw.
I pressure myself not to flinch,
nor to cry.
for i know one day,
these tragic memories will be forgotten,
when i give up and die.

I've always hoped for that moment to come.
To go to the Summerland.
Were there are no beatings,
there is no anger.
The place were you could dream of butterflies,
and in front of you they will appear.
No doubt the place i could be same,
the place i would not fear.

He thrusts his fist back at me several times.
I'm thinking this is it.
This is the night i wait no longer.
This is the day i die.

Then everything goes black.
Like I'm in a world full of shadows.
But surly there is no light.
I hear sounds.
But that's the only sense i can seem to use.
I hear sirens of many.
The talking of men non-stop.
Don't they know I'm dead?
I guess they will find out soon.
All my senses are coming back to me now.
I feel a lifting sensation.
Like the first snowfall you see as a child.
But this ones more calming then exciting.
I look, as i see i am in a birds eye view of my own passing.
I hear the high pitch sound of the generator
that is hooked up to my heart beat.
stop beating.
My dream,
a flat line.
Suddenly every things gone,
disappeared.
And i am in a marvelous meadow,
flowers scattered all along the dew sweet grass.
As if to greet me.

I see many people here.
I figure they all died to.
I even see some i recognize.
Like that lovely girl Lucy.
From my class.
The class i used to go to,
before i died and passed.

Then i see her.
Her warm smile still painted across her face.
Her eyes hazel,
and the smell of the purple flower from Paris.
The one named the Lilac.
It is my mother.
The one who came here six years ago,
when a truck crossed her path.
We wave, hug, laugh and cry happily.
I may have died at a young age of only fourteen.
But that happens everyday right?
I am with my mother now.
I even met up with my dog Sam,
and my grandma to.
I am happy here.
This place is my haven.
I am finally in
the Summerland.